Circle of Hell

just by looking at the streets when it's rain

it feels calming

i wonder what is it feels like when you crossed the street without looking around

without even care your surroundings 

is it just me or my thoughts wandering around again? 

god, i don't even know

this shit feels like hell 

i keep trying to feel alive, to be like the others

not my intended to do so, i don't like being vulnerable

i don't like myself when i feel vulnerable 

i don't like myself either 

but it brings me back to where i've before 

this shit it's an endless loop; circle of hell 

am i sick? 

i hope not 

just me and my denial issues, keep on living denial and denial 

distracting myself with other activities, keep being strong stand tall with just yourself 

although inside, i feel lonely; hollow 

i'm wounded 

i just don't know what is wrong with me

can i just end myself? 

it would be easy though 

life is though, you gotta keep strong 

yeah, just live like that rainy 

in your circle of hell